Princess Christine

Finally, I deleted his number on my phone!!! Finally, I deleted him from my contacts list in Friendster & Multiply!!! Yes, I finally had the courage to do it…

I know, super long overdue na…dapat dati ko pa ginawa pero I was so afraid of losing him before as a friend kasi. Pero it just made things worse because even being friends with him na lang sinasaktan pa din nya ko. It would never work, an EX can never be a friend. Siguro a girl can be friend w/ an EX if the EX had good qualities, if the girl felt the love pero in my situation? Huh…i was just too blinded by love that i didn’t notice that what he did was just USE me nung panahon na kami pa.

Well, enough of the ranting… I just hope that he really is HAPPY now and that he truly is IN LOVE kasi kahit papano I don’t want his wife to experience the things that I experienced with him. (I’m not that kind of person who wish bad things to people… like others might be saying esp his friends.)

Basta, all I know is I FINALLY DID SOMETHING RIGHT! I FINALLY DELETED YOU! I will not let your words put me down anymore… I know that I am beautiful & someday someone will see that in me… If nobody does, I don’t even care… Because God is with me.

P.S. If you and your wife can read this: "THANK YOU" (thank you for finally getting married because you really can’t hurt & you will not bother me anymore) & of course, BEST WISHES to both of you!!!

Was watching this episode "Ex & the City" (Sex and the CIty, Season2, last episode) and grabe super naka-relate ako sa scene talaga. This is the scene where Carrie met up with Big to have lunch after learning that Big has a new girlfriend, Natasha….

Carrie: Okay, tell me about the girl…

Big: Really?

Carrie: Friends talk about their relationship…Go ahead friend, tell me about the girl.

Big: Well, she’s very sweet…

Carrie: Okay, enough! Don’t tell me about the girl. No, can do. Maybe we should make a pact, we don’t talk about our relationships until they get really serious or something.

Big: Carrie, it is serious. We’re engaged, I wanted you to hear it from me.

Carrie: Oh, I just got this splitting headache.

Big: Well, I didn’t know how to tell you…

Carrie: Engaged?!? How can you be engaged? You have a problem with commitment remember? In fact, you told me you never wanted to get married again, ever?!?

Big: Well, things change….

Carrie: Meaning what? You just didn’t want to marry me?

Big: Well, Natasha & I…

Carrie:  Don’t you say her name to me…Don’t you dare say her name to me. You string me along for two years and then you marry some 25 year old girl after only 5 months?

Big: I didn’t string you along…

Carrie: All right,fine. You didn’t! You know what, I have to go. I have a headache.

Big: Are you okay?

Carrie: I’m fine! Don’t help me! Don’t you help me!

Big: Don’t end it like this—-

Carrie: You did it like this. I was being friendly. This seems like a much better way to end things. Go! Be engaged to Nijinsky or whatever her name is! Have a nice life…

Those who know me will be able to understand why I can relate to this….

I am just so addicted to this show….Here are some of the most memorable lines from the TV  show:

-Sometimes no matter how much you love someone, that person can’t just
love you back the same way, and being with the person who doesn’t love
you back is way lonelier than being alone.

-As surgeons, we are trained to look for disease. Sometimes the problem
is easily detected, most of the time we need to go step by step. First,
probing the surface looking for any sign of trouble.  Most of the time,
we can’t tell what’s wrong with somebody by just looking at them.
After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their
insides tell a whole other story.—Meredith Grey

-There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment,
and we may be surprised at the commitments we’re willing to let slip
out of our grasp.  Commitments are complicated.  We may surprise
ourselves by the commitments we’re willing to make.  True commitment,
takes effort, and sacrifice.  Which is why sometimes, we have to learn
the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.—Meredith Grey

-Being a surgeon is easy, just remember to cut, close and suture.  But
sometimes you’ll encounter a cut that is difficult to heal, just like
love, you can always cut but closure n suturing don’t always follow
thus causing continuous bleeding.—Derek Shepherd

-You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy
tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince
charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie
in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter
faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so
close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you
open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the
things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go
of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit
of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will
come true.—Meredith Grey

-At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you
don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy
tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it
may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just
that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon,
people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take
your breath away.—Meredith Grey

-At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other
people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made.
So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life
crossing them. But there are some lines… that are way too dangerous
to cross.—Meredith Grey

-I know I’m not a lot of things that you’ve gone for in the past - I
know, but I would never leave you. I would never hurt you. And I will
never stop loving you…—George O Maley

-Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope
the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy
answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the
time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you
least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you
just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it
and life always makes more.—Meredith Grey

-Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass.
And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend
is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We
are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner
or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on,
guns blazing. De Nile. It’s not just a river in Egypt, it’s a freakin’
ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?—Meredith Grey

-Maybe we’re not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do
with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what
it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes
simply to be human. Maybe we’re thankful for the familiar things we
know. And maybe we’re thankful for the things we’ll never know. At the
end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing
is reason enough to celebrate.—Meredith Grey

-Okay, here it is, your choice… it’s simple, her or me, and I’m sure
she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big
pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of
cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate
way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.—Meredith Grey

-As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know
we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our
patients… and how to take care of each other. Eventually, we even
have to figure out how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have
to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it’s better to stay
in the dark, because in the dark there may be fear, but there’s also
hope.—Meredith Grey

-At the end of the day, there are some things you just can’t help but
talk about. Some things we just don’t want to hear, and some things we
say because we can’t be silent any longer. Some things are more than
what you say, they’re what you do. Some things you say cause there’s no
other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but
every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.—Meredith Grey

-For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want
it to be with someone you can’t get out of your head, so that when your
lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep
you never want to come up for air. You can’t cheat your first kiss.
Trust me, you don’t want to. Cause when you find that right person for
a first kiss, it’s everything.—Alex Karev

-I’ve been lying in this bed for close to a year, and I’ve had a lot of
time to look back on my life. And the things that I remember best -
those are the things I wasn’t supposed to do and I did them anyway. The
thing is, life is too damn short to be following these rules.
—Danny Duquette

"why do all good things must come to an end?"

Maybe God just wanted it to come to an end because He wants us to look for someone who could make us happier and maybe because He wants us to find the man who we will be able to see a real future and not just promises…

Well, maybe for some girls being single is a curse but really it is a blessing for us to love our selves and God first. Because if we do, we can find the right man for us easily with no restrictions and judgments.

Just keep your faith and trust with the Lord and everything will come to its right place.

We will find our prince, maybe not today or tomorrow but we definitely will.

I did find love.

I believed that there is someone out there for me and I met him finally.

We had a beautiful wedding and everything just fell apart.

I’m worried that he took away my ability to believe.

I hate him for that because I always believed before. And now I just feel… LOST.

And I am, I’m trying to put myself out there… but I feel HOPELESS.

——Charlotte of Sex and the City

As I was watching re-run episodes
of Sex and the City (as I do always), I literally flooded my room with
tears during one of the episodes entitled, "Unoriginal Sin".  The scene
where Charlotte and Carrie were in an affirmation seminar of believing
in love. As I hear Charlotte’s words, I can’t help but weep because I
too feel the same thing…

You know, I just broke up with my
boyfriend of almost 7 years. I know that it’s been a month now since
that but I still cry and still feel lonely. I may put a smile or so in
front of my friends and family (whom I always get my strength with, by
the way) but when I’m all alone, nanhihinayang pa din ako…I’m still
shattered…I still feel empty…

I used to be a hopeless romantic
before all of these things that happened… I used to be like
Charlotte, always the believer in love. But now, I’m afraid I am
already cynical about it. I don’t even know if I will be able to
believe again. As what Charlotte said: I feel LOST and I feel
HOPELESS…

What if this was the last
chance? What if Boom was the man for me and I let him go? What if after
this relationship, wala na palang kasunod?

But as what Lora (one of my two
very best friends, Rob is the other) said: "with God there’s no such
thing as a last chance… the only what if I can think of is WHAT IF
YOU’D BEEN HAPPIER?…Please don’t settle for a bad relationship, I
don’t want to ever see you in such pain."

I still want to believe in love…
And I know that in God’s time he will let me again… Charlotte did
find Harry in the end right?

I know that he’s just there,
somewhere. God will help me find him. The one na hindi na puro
promises, yung kapag nakita ko I will just see my future—a real one.

I will not give up… I will believe…

"I would just like to share to all of you, one of the
articles/stories that I read in a book of Bo Sanchez…the title of the
book is How To Be Really Really Really Happy… Here it goes:"

I’m writing this article now with fever wracking my body. I’m also a
sickening sight to behold: I’m lying down in bed with a computer on my
lap and my hair unkempt, wearing faded blue pajamas, crumple black
socks, a dirty jacket and a soggy towel around my sweaty neck… In
fact, I look so ugly only my mother approaches me now. Others would
pinch their noses and shut their eyes and run away as fast as they can.

Okay, so I’ve never been really physically attractive in my life.
The last time a girl said she was in love with me was in grade school,
and she had to say it. You see we were on stage, and it was a Romeo and
Juliet play.

But today, I really feel like a horror-film material.

But hey, guess what…something really grand happened a while ago
that meade me soar to cloud nine: A little five-year-old girl visited
me today. And when this bouncy, lovable, cute doll saw me, she raced
towards me, jumped all over me and kissed me.

To her I look perfect. I was handsome as Richard Gere and Kevin
Costner put together. But naturally, she didn’t know these guys and had
to say it in her own words, at her own level. She said, "Brother Bo,
you’re so cute, you look like Donatello, my favorite Teenage Mutant
Ninja Turtle."

I almost wept with delight. "Thanks," I said.

"Brother Bo, one day, we’ll get married," she said.

"Gosh. Can I  think about this for a while?"

"No," she pouted and shook her head, "And  when we’re married, my Mama will live with us. Okay?"

As my destiny was being written before my eyes, I smiled at the way
kids don’t carry around the terrible adult baggage of what we ought to
look like. They don’t care whether you’re ugly or pretty or beautiful
or turtle-looking…

With raw clarity, it hit me with great force: The world has lied to
us! For who says that we should have fair skin, shiny hair and a
pointed nose?

Who says they you should be 36-24-36? By these very standards, the
world has distorted how you and I look at ourselves and one another. We
no longer see persons as immortal creatures with eternal souls destined
for glory. What we see are blemishes.

But there is one other Person who doesn’t. And He, too, wants to
marry you. Yes, God loves you! And he wants you to be irrevocably one
with HIm forever in heaven.

Repeat: Forever.

In His eyes you are beautiful. More than you can imagine.

"What a great story huh? It just shows that no matter what we
look like, we are all beautiful and we are all perfect especially in
God’s eyes.

I hope that this will inspire you too…"